doWn..Down..dOwn...!!

im so damn down..

there's something happened to me..

i just cant face it..

its too pain for me..

how can a person b lik this?..

it so hard...

too hard for me..

some people say patience is virtue..

yes i do believe it..

but..

d process of waiting..

is killing me day by day...

it hurts alot when u cant get to b wit someone

u love with ur whole heart..

in d process..

u must learn to hold yourself back..

really..

i dunno how to explain it..

some people told me..waiting is not a good choice..

but me myself choose to wait..

i cant blame anyone if d ending is not u wanted..

i really hope he will look back at me..

for one day...

i changed alot....

but sometimes..u still insist i didnt..

but is tat d way u think of me..

but u're not me...

when i say im not...

means im not..

i reli don hv d hard feelings..when things happen..

mayb...tat time..

i shouldn't have ask for it 6 months ago..

n it wont end up lik tis today...

i reli blame myself for it..

both of us..

from d past...

we used to control each other...

tat's y v end up lik tat..

once u get freedom..

u'll jz love it..

u cant get rid of it...

sigh...

im so pain..

i hope...

reli reli prayed so hard..

tat d ending will b what i want..

i dont know what am i suppose to be mean?!!....

i hate all these feelings...

ps:

i love you more than anyone