doWn..Down..dOwn...!!

im so damn down..

there's something happened to me..

i just cant face it..

its too pain for me..

how can a person b lik this?..

it so hard...

too hard for me..

some people say patience is virtue..

yes i do believe it..

but..

d process of waiting..

is killing me day by day...

it hurts alot when u cant get to b wit someone

u love with ur whole heart..

in d process..

u must learn to hold yourself back..

really..

i dunno how to explain it..

some people told me..waiting is not a good choice..

but me myself choose to wait..

i cant blame anyone if d ending is not u wanted..

i really hope he will look back at me..

for one day...

i changed alot....

but sometimes..u still insist i didnt..

but is tat d way u think of me..

but u're not me...

when i say im not...

means im not..

i reli don hv d hard feelings..when things happen..

mayb...tat time..

i shouldn't have ask for it 6 months ago..

n it wont end up lik tis today...

i reli blame myself for it..

both of us..

from d past...

we used to control each other...

tat's y v end up lik tat..

once u get freedom..

u'll jz love it..

u cant get rid of it...

sigh...

im so pain..

i hope...

reli reli prayed so hard..

tat d ending will b what i want..

i dont know what am i suppose to be mean?!!....

i hate all these feelings...

ps:

i love you more than anyone

It's a Brand New Year..!!

it's been a very long time
ever since I update my blog..!!!..
lolx..
i am so LAZY to blog..!!
just dont know why is it..
lazy to open to open computer..
lazy to connect to the internet..
lazy to write blog..
lazy to online..
hahah...
I AM REALLY SO LAZY..!!
just cant explain all these laziness..!!

ok ..
now i'ts a Brand New Year for me..
2009..
new sem..with a new subject..
assignments is waitting for me now..!!
n exam is waiting for me..
im in SEM 2 YEAR 1..
time table sucks..!!..
most of d time is from 3pm to 6pm..
when d time i finish class..
the LRT will b so damn packed with peoples..
n i will hv to squeeze myself into d LRT..
i hate it..!!!
sometimes...al those people really damn irritating..
there's this uncle..saw him quite a few times d..
ok...
yes he did queue up...but when the train arrive..
wa..he quickly rushed in n hold on tight 1st..without letting
d passengers come out 1st..
seriously...
when i saw tat...wa..i kenot tahan manz..
i wanted to scold him..
but i didn't..
lolx..
say wan scold only..
but i didnt...
haha..

a new year...
a new Start!!..
that's so true..!!!

I have to pick up everything from d past
to keep moving on!!!..
i must make sure me myself..
is keep moving on the path..!!!
i dont want to tell grandmother stories again..!!

i'll try to update my blog..
must be HARDWORKING d..
not LAZY..
MUST THROW ALL D LAZINESS INSIDE ME..